one day before new year .

wow, entar lagi tahun bru lho .
hoho .
senang sih ...

cman mles aj ngearayain, ngumpul" brg kelurga, doa kel ...

believe it or not, i hate that .
klo ad acra gtu, gw kyknya gak ada privasi gtuu ..
for what sih renungan tahun baru KALAU tindakannya sama aja kyk tahun" sblmnya ..

last night, i cry.
yep, i've cried for a week i guess .
gw rsany gak bs melupakan kej itu
kej yg sudah mebekas dalam hati gw .
yg membuatku trauma, dan hny guling yg menjadi tempat tangisanku .
huh ...
dlm tangisan ku, penuh dengan penyesalan yang mendalam .
pnyesalan yg tak bs dlupakan wlaupun gw gak mau mengingatnya .

gw memikirkan, gw hanya bs memebuat org susah, gw pengen bntu org" ...

tp ap yg berikan selalu kebalikanny ...

ksh sYg mjd kebencian ..


huh, what the heck .
i can give solution to others, i can't give solution to myself .
i don't know what will happen next .
beyond this funny guy, there's a sad, ugly duckling inside ..

yep, i only want my friends to be happy.
'cause only them can get out the swan from my soul, even though is it only 1 sec, i feel like 2 years .

now, i just work my ass off to have the opportunity to be a perfect swan for myself , my friend, my family and others forever and ever .
that's why i need my God, my true love ..

^^
do u know, I'VE NEVER WRITTEN THIS BLOG THIS LONG !!
LOL

have a happy new year y'all .. ^0^