Remember me?
OK, I'll refresh your memory.
We met at school orientation. We were from different school but our group was side by side. I wanted to have a lot of friends from different school, so I approach to everyone including you. But i felt an aura that you stuck up and a little bit "look at me" kind of person. But i think it's ok to have many types of friends. so i gather all my guts and introduce myself. I was very surprised that you respond it nicely. I said to myself "wow. i really misjudge you. lol" i also surprised that we had same thing in common. From then we talked and i wished taht you could be a best friend to me. well, i had a really bad broken heart at the last of mu junior high. and i really need someone to put on my smile back.
As days passed, i know that you are very unique. you are not like the rest of the boys. You are kind, sensitive and "i understand" kind of person. I was very happy because i could tell my parents that i had a new friend and he is a boy.
Months after the orientation, our friendship getting stronger and i knew that behind your good quality, there was a sad person tearing up when the rain come. so, i said to myself that i have to pay back all your nice and kindness to me so i decided to be your smileleader and also someone that always said to you that there is a rainbow after the rain. so, you should smile and don't don't always blame yourself, be optimistic.
Suddenly, you dated one of my closest friends. I was very happy for both of you. The one thing i remember the most when that thing was going on, you said that you will never forget me even tough you already had a girlfriend because i were so nice to you.And that words that made up my mind to make you as my man of honor at my wedding.
But suddenly it changed. You read my blog and sent me a message that you are angry because i wrote "I feel pity to him". you were so angry and i was like i didn't write nasty things about you. Why you conclude yourself that i wrote it in a bad way? If you were my friend, my closest friend you know me well, right? The word "pity" i mean was that i wanted to help. I wanted to put your smile back. But, why you are being so mean? You ca ask me nicely, you know?
And also you were angry about K. You compare me to him. You said that i have nothing compares to him. While reading that, i said "do you remember who were there for you when you still nobody? do you remember who are blowing away your tears when you really devastated about yourself?". I gave all my best to you so you can be a happy-go-lucky guy.
At the end of your message you said that you want still to be my friend. And i was like, what? Thanks. Thank you so much for being honest to me. I was so shocked. I didn't even think reply it. "Is that really what you feel all this time?" I kept saying that while signing out from my account. I turned on my iPod and played Taylor Swift - White Horse and went to bed. I knew it was over.
You changed so much from that day. You have become one of the boys. I am very proud of you that you can be on your own. Happy. Sometimes, i said to myself, "Can we still be friend?". And i realized that you're not Nelson Mandela. you're not Oprah Winfrey. You will feel humiliated when your friend seeing us being friendly.
When my birthday came, i prayed that you suddenly saying "happy birthday and i'm sorry". Well, it didn't happen. (What was i thinking, right? -_-")
If you are still the same person that i met at the school yard back then, you know that i am much better compare to what your friends are saying.
This year is the last year we met. Thank you for telling me a very nice and warm story about friendship. Now, we know who got the happy ending. I have one thing to say. I know that you don't like me like at the 10th grade and i also can't force you to like me. But, can you say nice thing behind my back?
Good luck on your studies. Hope the best for you.
Once again, thank you.
Sincerely,
Tito
p.s: sorry if there any gramatical wrong. well, i wrote it with feeling.
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